The Uncertainties of Life

I've never been very good with not knowing what's going to happen next. Even with an evening out with friends it's nice to know what's going on all evening before I commit to anything. Well, these past few weeks have been torture for me (not really, but they have been hard). See, I graduate on May 6th and I have to do an internship this summer between the time frame of May 8th and June 25th. I have had two different internships lined up during the coarse of this semester and both of them have fallen through. Just this past week, I had to start from square one again. :( Long story short - I still have no idea what I'm going to do this summer and it is only three weeks away!

Alas, I am managing. My friends are keeping me sane and I am reminded of the times that the Lord has provided for me in the past. This encourages me that He will be faithful to provide for me now. I am still nervous and anxious about what I'm going to have to do, how much it will cost, whether or not I'll have the funds and what I'll need to take with me, etc. I like to plan ahead and in this case, I am forced to have to wait till the last minute and trust that God has got all the details worked out - even the finances.

With all that to say... I really don't have much to update you all on - other than the fact that I still don't know what I'm doing this summer. I'm working on the possibilities and I'm still hoping that I can go to the training that I wanted to go to in Oklahoma that starts in July. My internship is my priority right now though and so as long as that can get done before then. I would appreciate your prayers for my patience and trust in God's provision. After all that He has done for me, you'd think it would be easier to trust him... but with each new thing that comes alone, I still have to fight the temptation of thinking that I can handle it on my own.
Grace and Peace to all!